Your destiny still waits

 There are moments in life that feel too heavy to carry. Moments that silence every good thought and drown you in whispers that lie to your soul. This is one of those stories. Raw. Real. And redemptive. There are parts of the stories we don't always talk about, but such stories can give hope to other people who might be going through the same darkness.

I was young. But the weight carried didn't care about my age. But somewhere along the way, I got lost. I don’t know if it was pain, loneliness, confusion, or a storm of all three, but I found myself in a very dark place. There was a sadness I couldn't explain, a shadow that followed me around. And one day... I almost let it win.

It didn’t happen suddenly. The sadness crept in quietly. Slowly. Until one day, I stood there… rope in my hand… shaking. Crying. Ready to do the unthinkable. Call it the devil, call it despair, call it confusion. But I was there.

I know it sounds cringey to talk about now. But it was real. I felt like I was being used by the devil indirectly maybe but, I truly believed there was no reason to keep going. I didn’t know how to ask for help. I thought no one would understand.

But just before I stepped into that moment that could’ve erased me from this earth, I heard something.

A voice not loud, but clear.


“This is not the death I want you to die. Get up. You have a life to live.”


I froze. My whole body trembled. Something inside me broke… or maybe it healed.


I let go of the rope and reached for my Bible. Randomly, I opened it. My eyes landed on Ecclesiastes. The words stared back at me like a mirror:


“There is a time for everything… a time to be born and a time to die… a time to weep and a time to laugh…”


I cried. Hard. The kind of crying that shakes your chest and drains your soul. I cried because I had almost made the biggest mistake of my life. I cried because God was still on my side even when I was far from Him. I cried because I realized…


It wasn’t time.


That moment changed me forever. I didn’t become perfect overnight. But I lived. And living gave me chances to see things I would’ve missed if I had ended my story early.


To anyone reading this… please hear me out:


Life gets heavy. It does.

But it’s not that deep not deep enough to die for.

Not today. Not like that.

Please don’t go through permanent solutions for temporary pain.


You matter.

Even when your mind says you don’t.

Even when you feel like a burden.

Even when the devil lies to you.


You are not alone.


There are people who love you. There are still sunsets left to watch, laughter you haven’t heard yet, people you haven’t met who will be grateful that you stayed. Your pain doesn’t cancel your purpose.


If you’re struggling, talk to someone. Cry. Scream. Pray. Journal. Reach out. Do anything but never give up.


Because one day, just like me, you’ll look back and say,

“God really had other plans for me."

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  1. Anonymous7:27 am, April 26, 2025

    Ndapwa, what did I just read ? 😭😭

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